One thousand six hundred and seventy-one days, I am here again where I had left. Today, not today actually from past one week I have given enough thoughts what I am going to write on my come back, and within a few minutes I decided let’s summaries this One thousand six hundred and seventy one days, where I had disappeared. Unsure whether someone will be interested in this short story or not, I am sure somewhere at some point you may relate to.
So, when I was not writing, I was only thinking no, only hoping of better tomorrow by not doing anything different. Lack of determination and discipline in my personal life adding to it, I am not going to shy away to accept it
Few years back, I accidently happen to fund into the business, jumping into an opportunity without knowing pros and cons. I incurred in huge losses, still in debt to pay half of it. The Learning I got – Not to jump into any opportunity without studying it. Low risk jump in opportunity– High risk, Study the opportunity 360 degree.
In the first half of my disappearance days, I had my focus only on business how to get it profitable and second half in worry of how to pay the debts.
When I was under the debt mountain lifting it all alone, during that time I was only passing those days one by one. Counting each and every day to pass on, believing all days are not the same, better days are yet to come. Was I depressed? Certainly, unsure of the depression level though. Apart from doing my salaried job, I was glued to Prime and Netflix, watching series after series to forget current life. I wasn’t drinking and smoking in case you are imagining it. I doesn’t smoke, I drink only in happy moments. At that time, I was only trying to control my mind by not letting it to think anything because I was only getting frightening thoughts of present day and worry about future. At one point I had food worry, bills were higher than my salary, such a frightening time.
During those days my focus in existing job increased to do better and better to earn more to pay debt. I love my job which I am doing from past 10 years, which is something I will continue to do for a long period for sure even after my debts are paid off. I enjoy my job, not only because it pays my bills but also it gives me various opportunities to keep doing better than yesterday.
You cannot be the same person you were yesterday; you must make better version of yourself today for your better tomorrow. This was unknowingly happening in my professional life, where I had my only focus during that time. I will write about it in detail on my blog on career journey.
Soon after the days started to turn good, the world is struck by C-19. This time I was not the only one in worst time of the 21st century, we all are. It gave me totally different perspective towards life ‘it is only today – the existing inevitable moment’ my topic for next Sunday.
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